Thursday, August 21, 2008 @ 11:07 PM


can things fall and stack nicely at the right place at the right time by itself ?
cus they seems to be falling everywhere , anyhow and anywhen.



Sunday, August 17, 2008 @ 9:01 PM
too much to handle


yesterday was one of the biggest upset and surprise i had in my life.
imagine getting to know from someone whom you care and showed so much love to that he or she had some hidden feelings for another person.
and you don even know whether what ohter things am i being kept in the dark. the feeling was devastating. total disappointment and loss for trust. especially when its not the first time such things happen. a sudden thought of betrayla engulfed me immediately. and i start to qns myself whether the love was for real or its just a game to you. personal feelings acts as a variable towards the attitude to the r/s is tt wat its supposed to be ? the level of disappointment shows clearly how much effort iv put in. depsite after the first time such issue got surfaced up.i chose to trust you but after the second time ? i wont ask for much all i ask for is to leave that lil trust for you unshaken. the statstic for what-you-do-and-what-you-get is always not equal. but i really don deserve such this treatments. its way too much for me to take it.
the damage this time is really way too huge...



Friday, August 15, 2008 @ 9:21 PM


i lead a boring / mundane life nowadays.( my gf says so ) supposingly its study week for us but THERES NO STUDYING IN MY DAILY ROUTINE ( ok maybe a few hours)
mon - Eng. Maths
wed- E Comm
mon - ECA

Eng. Maths is the most worrying papers among surprisingly cause it used to be quite a breeze to sit through. but the game has changed. =S * prays hard*


i wonder why am i feeling so excited. is there something special coming on ? HAHAHHA :D
for sure im gna get slapped by SOMEONE if she sees this. lalalal ~


two and a half hours more to go (:



Sunday, August 10, 2008 @ 11:06 PM


tell me how am i going to survive tmr all alone ?

=/


imy sweetie



Thursday, August 7, 2008 @ 11:30 PM


1.The person who tagged you is :
nurulnabilahhuda<3
2.Your relationship with her is :
bf&gf (:
3.Your five impression of her :
11 months ago or now ?
clumsy,cute,blur,irritating(in a good way),sweet. :D
4.The most memorable thing she had done for you :
last night. only both of us know. lalala~
5.The most memorable thing she said to you :
i love you beau.
6.If she become your lover, you will :
HAHA. she already is. lol
7.If she become your lover, thing she has to improve on will be:
it says IF. shes already my lover. meaning i can skip this qns ?
8.If she become your enemy, you will :
i guess the rest of the ppl i noe are my enemies too?
9.If he become your enemy, the reason will be :D:
we are joking around
10.The most desire thing you want to do for her now is :
buy time and give it all to her
11.Your overall impression of her is :
clumsy+blur+cute
12.How you think people around you will feel about you? :
depends on how close those people are to me
13.The characteristics you love about yourself :
actually. theres nothing. lol.
14.On the contrary, the characters you hate about yourself are:
=/
15.The most ideal person you want to be is:
everyone's perfect person !
16.The people that care and like you, say something to them:
life's aint a bed of roses.(they have thorns btw. HAHA)
17. pass this quiz to 5 ppl you wished to know how they feel about you:
nabilah
bestie huda
shiying
jj
ikhlas



Wednesday, August 6, 2008 @ 12:55 PM


will everything be alright and get better ?



i dont want to get used to it. =/



Monday, August 4, 2008 @ 9:38 PM
its a killa !


at last im done with programming presentation. its was shitty. i went in well prepared for last week's qns. and end up gotten killed by a new qns. apparently the qns wasnt easy. damn. and it was smth which was not taught nor did during normal lab sessions. after that was ecomm extra lesson. and also the last one. i still rmb vivdly how i curse and swear at the lecturer during the first lesson with all the unreasonable and weird lab rules to follow. but slowly i kinda of find him interesting and those lab rules werent that crappy either. lol.

ohya. gotten back the test for it too. surprisingly quite a few managed to get full marks for it. and i only got like 45 out of 50 ? lol. black horses. i think im more pissed with this test rather than the programming presentation. cause its simple. i understand the theory for ecomm test and i was still explaining to yx abt it and YET i myself got it wrong. how dumb. programming ? forget it. hahah.

dint managed to meet up nor msg much with gf.
and ya. i do miss her. and i just want to feel this way and nothing else. those uncessarry feelings. go get yourself another owner and stop bugging me.
i cant handle you. =/

iloveyoubabby , yes i really do.

12 more days





Sunday, August 3, 2008 @ 11:09 PM


since bby complains that i make her angry by being lazy and not updating , so i shall update. lol. i guess its exactly the same as what she started off for her entry.

seriously the weather is hot today. effing hot i swear. the moment i step out of the house i felt like a chewing gum. sticky. pffft. =s
had a gathering for my gramp birthday. as usual. breakfast den to some other places.
well this time round was still ok since the place we went was somewhere ive never been before though i always past by it every single day. bottle cap tree ? everything was fine except the weather. zzz

lately i've been having this feeling. not the same as the previous entry. lol.
a feeling that i dont feel the same feeling as it is compared to last time. i used to be on cloud 9 every night and maybe some mornings. those msges makes me go buttery and brightens up my day. but i dont know why i dont seem to feel it now. as in not as much as last time.

i dont know if im being too inquisitive or asking too much out of an issue. cause thats how i felt with the response i received. its seems that im too protective or irritating to be asking them. =/
supposingly after being so long in a r/s we should be confidence and have absolute trust in one another.
but not supposingly i don fully possess both of them. i hate this feeling uh. i repeat I HATE IT. and i don want to be feeling this way seriously. it does no one good. but it just have to befall on me now. why oh why ?
i guess the root causes of this might be due to what that had happened lately. and its haunting me. or caused a really big impact on me. either way round. sigh. it leads to no where but a series of unwanted arguements. when will the last one end ?

i really really really love my gf much uh. and i meant them.
can you feel them my dear ?
ohya. god please grant my gf''s wish too. make the rain come any sooner ! (:

i need you to lead me out of all this. can ? =/

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CHAN KANG YUAN
03.02.1990
NYP Electronics Computer Communication Engineering
because she live , thats why im here
currently tgt with:
NURUL NABILAH HUDA
♥ 16.08.07
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