Wednesday, April 30, 2008 @ 10:33 PM


best ah !
two days off from school.
wooo ~
actually theres nothing to be happy about. cause it only means that friday would just come faster and i have to like see alot of lecturers which i dont really like. z.z
and theres maths quiz on friday too. of all days it falls on a friday evening. its the time when most of us have stop functioning.
this time round no more cheating or whatsoever with this lecturer. arghhhh.

just let friday pass by real fast and weekends to set its foot in. (:

met up wit hun after her papers today. as usual sat at the favourite corner. and like monday at ard 1 going to 2 there will be this old lady whereby she will walk to the seats there with her umbrella and sit opposite of us. ohyar. and look at us. lol. today she did the same thign just that i kinda saw her smiled. like you noe those kind of "hiak hiak you two again" smile. and before that was an indian man who spoke to himself . -.-

i guess that's all ?
gotta get ready for partyyyy. haahah. :D


loves for her.
x3



Sunday, April 27, 2008 @ 10:07 PM


after months of staying at home during weekends , ive finally got my big fat ass out of woodlands.
and yar. went over to cousin house. and man. its really months since i went there and its totally not me since i would sulk if i don get to go there on sundays last time.

i thought my long absence would means there wont be any topics about me. but i was proved wrong once again. there actually is. and i was quite surprised though.
my gramps and aunt got to know things about me which ive never told them.
well. save the trouble for me to do introduction when the day comes. (:

i totally love all the msges during the weekends uh. just as much as hun. :D
all the virtue version of our future life. wooo ~
ok. i can only talk abt it till here. the rest is not for u all to find out and not for us to know.
well , because we already knew it ? HAHAH.
lets just hope we can differentiate virtue to reality and forget abt integrating it back.

her true colours has totally awed me and tarnish the good impression of her in me.
totally.
i dint expect that shes such kind of person.
who was the one who stood by you when you were going through the lowest point of your life ?
who was the one who dote on you ?
yes he might be strict and fierce at times. but why did he do that for ? fun ?
he did that because he was concerned.
he dint want anything bad to happen to you nor see you being taken advantage of.
what did he get at the end of the day ?
nothing but a shattered heart.
thanks alot.
get the hell out of his life cans ?
i just cant believe it la.
get out right now ? look out for the green sign.

PFFFFFTTTTTT


party with me on wednesday night hun ?
LOL.
lots of love. :D




Saturday, April 26, 2008 @ 11:33 AM


finally weekends are here. this week seems to pass by damn freaking fast.
ytd was once again the painful long day hours in school plus the dreadful night lesson.
had the first lab for communications. H.E.A.D.A.C.H.E
the clicker lecturer was kind enough to let us off early since he say we just have to submit our report and we can go off. i was the very first one to sprung up from my seats and start keeping the equipments like mad.

went cwp to meet farah. its been a long time since we last met ever since the class gathering. had a nice talk at macdonalds before heading back home.

ive been very doubtful over everything thats around me or rather for one particular thing for the past one week or so.
i just cant help it by feeling this way.

now that everything's been said.
harsh and hurtful i know.
but of good intentions.
all said and done.
waiting for the better to come.
and stay.



Tuesday, April 22, 2008 @ 11:14 PM


this is what we see in class every single day. people slping even at the start of the lecture. lol.
that summarise the whole day in school.

i gotta admit. i still cant get over it but theres nothing i can do.

ironically , i felt that i cant be bothered but at the same time i just cant let it rest.

get better in time ?

i just realise its just so hard to hide how much i miss you. ): and i really do. sigh.




Monday, April 21, 2008 @ 10:39 PM


so much of trust and understanding.


its all said but nothing's done.


although things are not going fine now.
i still gotta say this.
im touched when i saw what you've blogged about.
we'll just wait those days to come uh.

loves



Sunday, April 20, 2008 @ 10:28 PM


DAMN. WEEKENDS ARE OVER LIKE AGAIN.

its back to the starting line next week. going through the same whole routine in school.
ohgosh.
lets just hope this week would be better la.


cant wait for tmr cause i might be meeting GF (: woohhooo
imissherlots la. boohooo.


if only i can make all the if only's in my life to be true....


gf is loved and missed much !
loves



Friday, April 18, 2008 @ 10:32 PM


one week of school just ended...
and i ask myself what have i learnt for this one whole week and it seems to be that ive learnt nothing much.
all the lectures seem so boring and i don really ustd whats being taught up there.
totally zero motivation to study.
plus long school hours. who the hell can stay at their optimum for such long hours ?

the end of this week marks the start of next week which also means going through the same old thing like... AGAIN ?
lets just hope it will turn out better.
pfftt.

sigh ~
like totally.

hun, study hard for mye uh. i know you sure can do it. its a matter of whether you want it or not. give your very best shot ehs ? i'll be there for you. and yar. cant wait for the trip to the zoo ! (:


i miss gf much D:
lets hope we get to meet tmr uh
and yar another sigh =/

ps//im going through withdrawal of you




Thursday, April 17, 2008 @ 8:15 PM


damn. i seriously am dragging myself to school now and then due to the long hours in school. like the timetable. so i'll just skip the whole chunk









supposingly i shoud meet gf at 6 plus after my school ends and her fnn practical to end.
thank god the last lesson ended quite early since it was just briefing.
met at the same place.
wooo ~ cant wait sia since shes letting me try out her cooking. like FINALLY.
nope. its not maggie or bread with nutella. its REAL food this time round.
cupcakes (or rather cookies)
minestrone soup
pasta
i gotta take back my words that she cant cook uh.
actually i dint meant it either. i was just trying to disturb her and make her cook for me.
nyehhhh nyehhh. :D
one word.... YUMMMILICIOUS ~
i tried the cupcakes(cookies) and the minestrone soup.
indeed she can cook la. no doubt about it. but too bad its only once in a while thing. ):

HUN , YOU REALLY CAN COOK SIA. *CLAPS CLAPS*
i really hope i'll get to try more of your cooking la. can can ? prettyyyy pleaaassseee ?
i promise that i'll finish every single thing. (:


im still looking for the right time to say the things that i want to say.
and i really hope its the right time ...


nurulnabilahisloves !



Monday, April 14, 2008 @ 9:10 PM


first day of school and im dead beat.
first part of the day was 3 hours -20 minutes of break of theories. -.- not cool at all.

then was introduction of entreuprenuership. lecturer was kinda of cool. and one thing for sure hes loaded with money la. with so many buisnesses over so many countries. pfftt. the way he speaks is also very different from all the lecturers ive seen. and he seems to know many different kind of languages and dialects.

here comes the best part. END OF SCHOOL ! :D
waited for gf since shes meeting shafa at admiralty place before heading to school for napha.
and damn. i miss her like ARGH and seriously i cant wait to see her sia. lol. sat awhile then they went off.
went to pick her up after that. as usual sat somewhere and talked. *secrets*
hun , i beg you can ?
head for the toilet before leaving school.
lol.

and yar. i wonder whens the next meetup.
and and star gazing.
=/
pray hard after O's everything would be done.



a simple msg from you would just brighten up my whole day (:
NURUL NABILAH HUDA IS LOVES
like many many ?
:D



@ 7:08 PM


ika bdae celebrations.
according to jel's blog. she say we are cute in this pict.
like totally. :D







second gathering of 4e1.

and yar. look at the attendance.
lets just hope the upcoming one there would be more new faces appearing in the photo



Sunday, April 13, 2008 @ 5:51 PM


the rest dont really matters

what matters to me now is i miss her much and it will be much much more starting nx week.
):

ohwell. i just gotta live with it.
sigh.

school's starting tmr.
boohoo.



i love you
i need you
i want you
the way i do



Saturday, April 12, 2008 @ 5:11 PM


speech day went well ytd.
had lunch tgt wit gf at ljs. and yar she sae she doesnt want to go out and eat with me anymore. ):
lol.
after speech day was gathering at pasir ris for 4e1'06.
and yar. i was quite anti social. dint mingle much cause i seriously cant find common things to talk abt.
unlike benny and farah who can talk crap with them. i dno why. but it went out abit better at the later part.
alex and jx bought beer.
alex drank and got wasted and got into trouble.
went to touch some notsopretty ah lian girl who has a bf in army who is in overseas and will be back in one month time. go get some life can ?

stone-ed for dno how many hours there. staring into the blank space and vast sky. and listening to the ever repeating songs being played on the radio.ohyar. and thinking whether to join nyp band. yar i know. its quite a shocker to hear me joining band but i think i nid a cca. =/
started playing cards ard 4-5 plus and everything ended at 6.
trained to tampines and bus-ed back. slept abit during the journey.

got back rested awhile and went out again to take hun home. sat awhile before leaving.

sigh. hun , ive already say my part and now its up to you to do your part. but im not forcing you if you dont want to tell which i knew it at the start. i've procrasinated enough and now i finally come clean with everything. i actaully dint know which day would be the best day to break it to you since you seem so busy so many upcoming things.
but i still did it. like what i say. if things still remain a one sided manner , then everything would be still stagnant. i felt bad not telling you how i feel and neither could i hide my feelings well and thats the reason why you had to tolerate my attitude towards you.
but now i feel more worst telling you. cause even though i talk to you , you say you cant tell me how you feel.
sigh~
never mind uh.
now im left speechless.
just remember its not a pinpointing session but care and share session about how we feel towards each other.

ily
but the more i love you the more im afraid of losing you
and yar i know you feel the same way too.



Thursday, April 10, 2008 @ 8:41 PM


"i'm mr chan or u can call me ky , your teacher is not here today so just sit down and do your work"
thats what i said to every class i relief. zzz. nx time i think i can just skip the introduction since almost all of them knows who i am.

first day of relief and it made me reminisce the old secondary school time.
the superb early waking time as compared to now.
the smell of the morning air.
the freaking morning assembly ( i cant believe i started singing national anthem and the school song AGAIN TODAY-.-)and reading periods.

i guess im being labelled as the ncc guy cause whenever im in school people starts asking me today got ncc ah ?
and yar. u can expect those stunned faces when i told them im here to do reliefing.
and they changed from "sir" to "cher". lol.

different classes means different kind of kids.
there are kids who sings infront of me. gossip abt their bfs. sleeps. read like theres no tmr though i gave them work. kids who sit in groups talking and taking a look at me almost after each sentence.kids that are deprived of sitting on the floor.
thats what i observe the whole day.
all i did was sit down there. talked with those sitting infront of me. stare into blank spaces. nod my head to let them go toilet or water cooler.

BUT. it was a good exp though. and kinda cool cause you used to be sitting down there at the parade sq , hall or wheresoever and now you sit inside the staff room. talkin to your own teachers. sit on chair at the hall. woohoo.
lets just hope i'll get my next relief for next week (:

ohyar. i dropped/lost 10 bucks today. ):


it'll all get better in time ?
many loves to gf.



Wednesday, April 9, 2008 @ 9:31 AM


tuesday
the day started off er... heartwrenching ? the night before wasnt that good either.
on top of that. damn those uncles downstairs. piling and piling non stop as early as 9.
i dno wat the fuck they are buiding/constructing. but can they like start work later ? spoil my sleep and it happens that i only have got a few more days left of late mornings before school starts next week. and as im typing now the floor of my house starts to rattle. the engine of the machine and the ta ta ta ta ta ta .. of the piling keeps playing in my ear like as though its some melody. -.-

went out to take gf (pocky) frm school. the jokes of her weird classmates never fails to make me have a good laugh at them esp the part when they watched jumper in class. lol.
behind those laughters were guilts. guilts of everything that has happen and it seems like they were caused by yours truly.
argh. shucks.

met ika andrea and hazuzu at cwp. pao pao char-ed and sat at those two seater bench. we started from talkin to singing and even have thoughts of joining superband. im part of the vocalist.for bass as always. zzz. andrea's the tui tui tui sound effect. hazuzu the emo hardrock guitarist. dna lester are also in the vocalist. benny plays the keyboard. i cant rmb ika do what. lol.

on the way back. we encountered one emo girl. with her nokia music phone playin the song tattoo through the speaker. and damn. her facial expression was freaking funny. seems so sad and as though shes doin her mv. as what ika says. shes in the shiok sendiri mode that time. of course we had our time poking fun at her and doing those stupid acts.

i actually went out on my own at night to wander off ard my neighbourhood. god knows for wad.

today.
going back to school later to get my books for year2. boohoo. me lazy. me no choice.
ohyar. im doin relief teaching tmr. yayness. finally. but i gotta do a second hair cut before im allowed to enter the school. like always. adss. *crik crik*


doughnuts love pocky.
(:





Tuesday, April 8, 2008 @ 10:05 AM


maybe im just not good enough for you. and its not your fault.
its mine.



Sunday, April 6, 2008 @ 3:35 PM


out of nowhere
i feel so empty ):
















what and who do i need the most ?



Tuesday, April 1, 2008 @ 9:06 AM


i made a totally wrong move somewhere last week or rather monday.
and im regretting it NOW.
argh.


*prayshard*

i love my BENBEN :D

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CHAN KANG YUAN
03.02.1990
NYP Electronics Computer Communication Engineering
because she live , thats why im here
currently tgt with:
NURUL NABILAH HUDA
♥ 16.08.07
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