Saturday, September 27, 2008 @ 10:32 AM



the passport to forever and ever ? :D



Thursday, September 25, 2008 @ 10:44 PM


finally i got a day off from relieving ! waking up at 6 plus for consecutive of serveral days really aint my thing now ever since i stepped into poly. lol. the only motivation for me to get up is gf. :DD cause i get to see her first thing in the morning ! hahah. honestly speaking its tiring. physically and mentally. sleepy and need to walk a long. but ! its all worth it. im freaking not lying. I SWEAR ! if i get to relief gf class everyday , i think if my sleeping time reduces to like 4 hours ? i dont mind eh. can see her the whole day siak ! like omg. hahah. seeing her is like wooo ~ nvm. only i ustd. heheh.

btw. i did managed to relief her class though. yes. it was awkward at the start cause i nvr know what her classmates would say or react. but thank god they quite sporting. or rather they also dint bother about it. everyone just did their own stuffs. well. i did mine as always. sitting infront at the teacher's table like a zombie. but at gf class was slightly diff. her class ma so gna be special. uh uh ! not those kind of naughty things uh. i taught her work ok ! lol. but since its physic and its secondary sch one somemore therefore was any great help to her though :x

during the past few days of relief. i got to know more students. students from different classes. good and bad. good cause more friends ? (its not that i got lil friends uh. lol ) bad cause they are so gna recognise me outside sch time. but now i also dont care la. see see luh. teachers no outside life ah ? whatsmore im just a relief teacher. hahah. :P

well. i guess thats enough to cover up whats happening recently in my life eh ? lol.
yawns ~

ps// i miss those never-gonna-end-till-we-fall-asleep long hours of msgin with gf ):
and i miss her too. sigghhh. =/



Thursday, September 18, 2008 @ 11:53 PM


Happy Seventeen Birthday Sweetie !
another year older ehs ? 17 alr la seh. wooo ~
be careful what you wish for uh. because you just might get it ! ahahah. :D
i dont care. i want to be inside your wish that you make ah.
if not.. NO PRESENT FOR YOU !
nyehh nyehh ~
with loves , bf (:



Tuesday, September 16, 2008 @ 12:17 AM



YES ! i freaking know what you know ehs.
its our 13th month of bittersweet love.
ups & downs.
laughters & tears.
none of us thought we could made it this far. way too far beyond their expectaions.
but we did ! not for them. not for anyone.
but only you and me.
US
what more can i say ?
last long long okay hun ?
stand by each other for we still got a long way to go and alot more to endure. :D
time maybe hard for us now but i supposed our love is harder than time kan ? heheh.
i love you babyy ! <3



Sunday, September 14, 2008 @ 10:21 PM


and girl , i miss you too ! ):
i dont want a smile from you only i want you. cause with you comes everything more than just a smile.
tmr starting sch with normal lesson alr eh ? like always. whenever monday comes
you always say the same old thing. lol. glad you know big fat O is
just a month away. its rolling its way to spore. dont MALAS !
endure endure and endure. and everything would be OVER. its come in a big O and leave with one too. (:
i not freaking in love with any colour or anything
but just you and only you
NABILAHku , i love you (:



Saturday, September 13, 2008 @ 1:17 PM


hmmm. relieving again on thursday. had to skip friday cause of appointment. (*winks)
seriously speaking , students nowadays are hard to teach , discipline and control. its either you push them too hard they cant take it or you let loose abit they climb over your head. the fear of teachers is no longer there i suppose. in case you might not know , im actually talking about the lower secs. its in between minority and majority. screw them eh ?

finally prelims done for gf. woo ! but theres still 60 more days to go before everything is really done and over. ): supermarket day with gf on thursday after work. supposingly shes doing the marketing but turn out im the one doing it. (willingly:D) the rest i know she know and thats that. (:

knowing that ytd was the last training for ncc , i decided to make a comeback to the unit. its been long since i went for training. lol. training schedule was... chui. everything had to end within a short time and test was worst. cadets were still unsure / not taught the drills for proficiency test. *claps*claps*
that was not all. i was still cool with that until some "HQ Staff" came back from range. with his newly donned rank he started displaying his authorities despite of knowing the fact it was fasting month , he decided to act things his own style. he was unlucky that i was present there. his instruction were overwritten by mine on the cadet's welfare basis. why dont you try fasting and see how it feels whateverrankyouare ? tsk.

i guess todays another rotting day. zzz
3 more days to 16 ((:
6 more days to 19 ((:

hun , i miss you ):
&iloveyoutoo <3




Tuesday, September 9, 2008 @ 11:11 PM


i just realised that i haven been updating my blog for .. quite a long time ? lol. which explains why im doing so now. nothing much recently. did relief again today and i hope many more to come ?

gf's prelim has also started again mostly with heavy papers. JIAYOU okay babyy ? study hard for the last few papers and youre done with prelims ! i really wanted to be there for you but .. (you know , i know too) just do your best and stop DBSK-ing. one day i get real jealous i'll find my own duet too. and you should by now know who she's gonna be. boohoo. (and i do know you sure gna be jealous too. lol)

gotta head for bed night. yawns ~



my smile and laughters would always go to you. not by days but for life (:
lots of love babyy !
10 is the number :D



Tuesday, September 2, 2008 @ 9:55 PM


habits are hard to kick. one tends to get too used to something which they always see , hear , do etc.. and when any changes set in, even the slightest one gets you thinking. good or bad or rather mostly bad. its like inevitable and unavoidable. you tend to have this feeling of uncertainties and lost. and of course not used to it. and for me its almost losing half of everything in my life.

thats how i feel about my life now. sometimes it gets you wondering whether its presence is still there. like tell me who/how can i talk to upon such things. you use your heart to feel and your mouth to talk. its as good as asking your heart to do the job of your mouth. funny isnt it ?

yaya. and people starts to think that its just another emoshit. so what if it is or isnt so ? i dont think i owe anyone any explaination of what i have to say here. in my own blog.

i need to find the nearest exit sign cause i dont want to go through all this anymore. same goes to my babbyy



hun , i hope/guess you are doing fine now. i really want to be there for you but circumstances just wont allow.
we totally got no contact with each other except those super duper short calls.and most of the times we only talked for barely one min and it also seem that we cant and dont have much to talk about to each. maybe because of the time constraints or other reasons. its quite saddenning kan ? ): im worried and somehow lack of abit of security cause i seriously dno what you are doing time to time. =/ i just hope we would be able to last through all these shits and get over the like... very soon ?
i miss you badly and nonetheless love you truckloads eh. <3

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CHAN KANG YUAN
03.02.1990
NYP Electronics Computer Communication Engineering
because she live , thats why im here
currently tgt with:
NURUL NABILAH HUDA
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