Thursday, July 3, 2008 @ 9:38 PM


such things just have to keep coming all the time.
and it just get tougher and more demoralising each time it pay its visit.
this time round it hit me real hard. the concussion of what had happened. so hard that i cant see clearly of the path infront of me. or rather us.

im seriously losing grip on a thin rope thats supporting me all these while. its only a matter of time i fall deep onto the cold hard ground and bleed my way out.

those thoughts keep playing in my mind like a spoilt disc. all the negative thoughts.
i cant see myself waking up and find out that something that has been with me all along to be gone just like that out of nowhere.
ive tasted how its like to be hit hard on the ground. aint nice at all. totally. which explains why i do not wante to have a second taste 0f it.
i dont want to see myself wandering aimlessly around the neighbourhood like some pathetic soul
i just dont want to be what i am 4 yrs back.
i dont want to face this all alone. thats for sure.
im not that strong at all and im seriously knocked out this time.


hun, i really need you to confide to me all your thoughts as much as what i wanted to do so much
but dint cause you said you dint wanted to. i also do not exactly know whats the reason and i dint ask abt it either.
like i said , things wld be leftout or forgotten for as long as its not resolved soon after it happens.
but at the same time i also dont wish to force you.
lets just hope our love would see us through everything.
i wont leave you but its not totally up for me to decide.
cause i know at the end of the day i would still be displaced.
i dont know how long i can last but i will hold on to it for as long as i can uh.

i love you babbyy ! =/

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CHAN KANG YUAN
03.02.1990
NYP Electronics Computer Communication Engineering
because she live , thats why im here
currently tgt with:
NURUL NABILAH HUDA
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