Thursday, July 31, 2008 @ 9:31 AM


why am i feeling this way now ?
a feeling that something is lost.
a feeling that ive been wronged.
a feeling of unfairness.
a feeling of whydidigaveinsoeasyily?
a feeling of L.

get over it ky , will you ? zzz



Wednesday, July 30, 2008 @ 5:13 PM


if thats the case , i'll take my leave.




good things always come in small pieces ,
whereas bad things come in chunks.



thanksforsharingitwithyourfriend



@ 12:14 AM


i need tactics to overcome them.
anyone?



Friday, July 25, 2008 @ 11:26 PM


woo ~ its friday once again (((:
one more week down which means one week nearer to exams and common test. zzz.

past one week was test after test. both lab and paper quiz. skip the process and the comments. lol
after next mon would be the end of everything. a BIG fullstop to all the tests and stuff. and the early dismissal of some classes. ( i just rmb theres another paper quiz on fri. zzz . lol)

i hate to be defeated/bring down at this situation. its like many failures to level up to a higher level in a game.
=/
i doubt theres anymore things to update uh.

gfislove <3



Friday, July 18, 2008 @ 11:27 PM


its been long since i last updated siol.
been rather busy / moodless / nothing to update either. lol.

busy with stuffs which ive also forgotten about.
moodless or rather worried. and i mean seriously worried that i cant have peaceful sleeps for almost the last one week. pffft. well , im glad its over and phew ~ (:

lab test today. horrendous. at first i was so scared that i wouldn be able to set up the circuit correctly thus unable to find the correct readings. (i was confident to get the readings during my lab sessions ) however , it turned out the otehr way round. i could set up the circuit correctly and in working condition but i cant get my readings correctly. from the first qns to the last. i doubt any one of it were correct unless the lecturer take those answer (correct ones) which i scribbled off. -.- how about a round of applause ? lol. night lesson was ok. fun i can sae. with all the nonsenses going on around us. and not missing out the lecturer. i take back my words which i said when i first attended his lesson. he's quite fun and nice actually. :D

tests and tests coming up next week. zzz. and afterwhich comes common test and after afterwhich is exams. fucking fast can. omg.

a little note to myself. i realised im more easily jealous and sensitive nowadays. =/ or rather sensitive first which then leads to jealousy. ohwell. i guess its part of ky. lol.


anw. happy belated 11th month to babyy ! though i alr wished her and ya some other places. lalal ~
11 amazing months which bypassed us just like that !
cant wait for our 1 year ehs ?
love you syg (:



Wednesday, July 9, 2008 @ 2:24 PM


she's cute
she's blur
she's stubborn
she's sweet
she's part of me
she's mine

and most importantly..
SHE'S LOVED BY ME :D




Saturday, July 5, 2008 @ 11:13 PM


i hate the feelings within me. but the more i hate it the worst it gets each time.
and theres nothing i can do about it.
its like getting entangled in a spider web. the more you struggle the more entangled you are.
you struggle , harder to get out.
you don struggle , you definitely cant get out.
its just a matter of time the spider comes and eat you up. lol

this part of my life is quite biatch. =/



Thursday, July 3, 2008 @ 9:38 PM


such things just have to keep coming all the time.
and it just get tougher and more demoralising each time it pay its visit.
this time round it hit me real hard. the concussion of what had happened. so hard that i cant see clearly of the path infront of me. or rather us.

im seriously losing grip on a thin rope thats supporting me all these while. its only a matter of time i fall deep onto the cold hard ground and bleed my way out.

those thoughts keep playing in my mind like a spoilt disc. all the negative thoughts.
i cant see myself waking up and find out that something that has been with me all along to be gone just like that out of nowhere.
ive tasted how its like to be hit hard on the ground. aint nice at all. totally. which explains why i do not wante to have a second taste 0f it.
i dont want to see myself wandering aimlessly around the neighbourhood like some pathetic soul
i just dont want to be what i am 4 yrs back.
i dont want to face this all alone. thats for sure.
im not that strong at all and im seriously knocked out this time.


hun, i really need you to confide to me all your thoughts as much as what i wanted to do so much
but dint cause you said you dint wanted to. i also do not exactly know whats the reason and i dint ask abt it either.
like i said , things wld be leftout or forgotten for as long as its not resolved soon after it happens.
but at the same time i also dont wish to force you.
lets just hope our love would see us through everything.
i wont leave you but its not totally up for me to decide.
cause i know at the end of the day i would still be displaced.
i dont know how long i can last but i will hold on to it for as long as i can uh.

i love you babbyy ! =/

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CHAN KANG YUAN
03.02.1990
NYP Electronics Computer Communication Engineering
because she live , thats why im here
currently tgt with:
NURUL NABILAH HUDA
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