Sunday, January 27, 2008 @ 5:02 PM
size 8- try fitting into my shoes


now it seems to me that whenever i got no one to turn to to rant on i look for blogger. zzzz. and obviously my presence here again means im going through down times once again. yes ONCE AGAIN. it comes on a monthly basis. just like girl thing.

there's seriously too much things to rant on. every single day there will be new things updated

i feel just so tired sometimes going through all these alone or even telling other ppl cus its like a spoilt dvd that kips playing the same scene slowly and painfully.

skip the process. no one understands it.

no one was there for me. everyone had their own stuff to deal with. and yar i guess i gotta be used to it cus not everyone wld be there for us all the time. =/

i wonder how long i can take it or rather wheres the breaking point for me.
and i ask myself. what if one day i fall who's gna be there for me ? ):
right now even the slightest issue gets me shaken and yar im shaking real hard now
actually i don even know what im talking about.
its all messed up



Monday, January 7, 2008 @ 9:19 PM


never thought i would update this blog again uh and i guess its already abandoned by the rest. lol. but thats the good thing so no one will come and read and noe about it i guess.

life is being so hay wired nowadays and i don ustd/noe if it isnt that bad as it seems just that im the one making it seems as though it is so. argh ! and i cant seem to find someone to talk to. and even if so i oso don reali talk deep into it cus ppl seems to see it as easy settle and stuff bla bla bla. well. of cus uh cus they aint the one in my shoes and they don really ustd what im going through. sometimes its just so scary to be at home. theres no one i can turn to to pour everything out. and i guess i wld regret it if i do so for my probs now cus most probably it'll turn out even worst or rather it makes me feel even worst abt it. the only person i turn to the most wld be farah. i dno why but i feel comfortable pouring all my shits to her. and i really feel bad bothering her all the times.zzz. i want to put everything to an end but it seems that its just the begining of everything uh. and time is the major factor.

on top of that i still got sch work to stress over. projects after projects are streaming in and deadlines seems tight. worst team members cant meet durin the weekends cus they gotta work adn during weekdays we got our own stuff to busy with. aiya. it seems tt i got alot of things to worry/stress/bother abt it.
zzz. all i can sae is.... i oso dno wats the most appropriate term to describe life now. sucks. fuckedup.
FUCK IT ! =/

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CHAN KANG YUAN
03.02.1990
NYP Electronics Computer Communication Engineering
because she live , thats why im here
currently tgt with:
NURUL NABILAH HUDA
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